Is there a "normal"?......

Normal..... what do you define as normal? When I ask that question I am referring to day to day life. I have never been good at having a "schedule" and  I keep trying to figure out why so I can fix it. I have been unable to find a definitive reason and it is frustrating because that just means I am being lazy. I am not getting up at a certain time, working out, making breakfast, etc. everyday around the same time cause I am being a bum! 

My room has been a disaster for months! I start and always end up with a basket of the little misc. things you don't know what to do with... do you keep em cause you might need them or do you just throw them away. I have always kept them until today! I went through MONTHS of mail I am sad to say.... but I feel so much better now that I have done it. The stuff I am keeping is almost all filed and it feels great! I have challenged myself to keeping my room and desk clean for 30 days! I have read that after 30 days it becomes a habit. I have tryed before to do this and only made it like a week maybe two. I don't want to be the lady with the messy house, if my husband needs something I need to know right where to go to get it. 

So I will be gone in a couple weeks for a couple days for my first ever Scentsy Convention and my goal is to start a good routine after I get back so when school starts at the end of August that we will already be in a good swing and I wont have a hard time with Noah. We struggled through this school year and I am not doing that again! I know we can do homeschooling I just have to be the mom and make it happen the right way! 

So if you happen to read this rant of mine I would ask you to pray for me. That I will be able to stick with being organized and start on a good routine. 

:)

Just another Manic Monday!......

Well today was another day I did not get up on time!! I am not SURPRISED!! LOL, I am so not a morning person. This is such a hard pattern to break but i will keep trying even after I fail! Even though I did not accomplish my wake up time I did get most of my to do list done today. I feel pretty accomplished as I am about to go to bed. Laundry is all done in one day so that means I can move onto the next weekly task...... Kitchen Tuesday! Tomorrow I plan to get the kitchen done early and work on my room. It still has a few things out of place and it drives me nuts. Hopefully I will be getting a new desk soon so I can be a little more organized. I love organization. Sometimes it takes me a bit to get just how I want it but when I do it is a piece of PEACE!

Another thing I have to get back to is capturing our day in pictures, not just words. I have such a bad memory I need as many ways to remember as possible.

So here is another day in the books, and another day closer to accomplishing what I am setting out to do. :)

Just another Sunday.....

Well here I am another week gone by. Man these days just seem to disappear as soon as they begin anymore. Again I have fallen short on my goals of daily tasks. I have a dry erase board I write my to do list on, a piece of paper, an app on my phone, and a home management binder with a daily task list!!! I have so many places to write it down yet I seem to miss the mark! I find myself getting discouraged because I don't know what is wrong with me. Why cant I simply be the wife and mother I know I was created to be and do what I need to do on a daily basis. I know the answer and its hard to swallow....... ITS ME!!! I get to involved in myself and what I want and what I think I need that I forget how to serve the ones I love and provide what they need. I am such a selfish person and I hate it about myself. I don't want to be selfish anymore. I want to be a servant, not only to the ones I love but to JESUS. I still find myself daily sucked into mindless things that don't matter.

Tomorrow starts another new day and it is going to be the day for me! It has to be!! I am taking a break from getting Noah's schoolwork together for the next couple weeks while I type this. I went through a while ago and made a GREAT daily routine. I had looked at other peoples schedules and then took those ideas to make my own. The biggest problem in this grand idea is the schedule starts with me waking up at 5:30 AM!!! Now for those of you that know me well, you know that is crazy talk for me!! I HATE to wake up early! I am a night owl who would much rather stay up until 12 or 1 AM and sleep until about 9 or later!! LOL. But the thing is, if I just do it, my life will run so much smoother! I have time in there to exercise, make breakfast, clean up kitchen, wake up Noah, have him dressed and fed and me showered all by 830!!! Then I have Laundry, Kitchen, Living Room, Bathroom cleaning each on one day of the week. I know it is doable, I just haven't done it.

So, I have to set myself up for a 30 day challenge. Not only to wake up on time with the alarm but to follow my schedule for 30 DAYS!! I have been told once you do something for at least 30 days it becomes a pattern...... I can only hope!

So friends I am asking for you to pray for me. That I would have the will power, strength, and perseverance to complete this task I have set before myself. I know with Gods help and your prayers I can complete my new 30 day challenge!! :)

Already not on track....

It seems that this is always how it goes with me. I make a plan or "resolution" and it never seems to happen. I always seem to let myself get sucked back into the unimportant superficial things in life. I have found myself over this past week backing away from TV and slowing down on facebook to picking up speed again on both. Why do I let these mindless things fill my day! I have so many things I need to do and so many other things are worth my time. I did not count the exact amount of time but I know my son watched entirely WAY TO MUCH TV IN ONE DAY! And I know I spend entirely WAY TO MUCH TIME ON FACEBOOK.

I have to come up with a plan for me, him, and the rest of the family to stay on track and not in mindless crap. I do not want this to be the rest of my kids future..... lost in TV. I loved going to my grandparents house and being able to take Noah to visit because up until last Christmas when my aunts, uncle, and dad got them cable ..... there was none. They do not have internet either. So there really wasn't much to do, other than help out or entertain yourself with some of the toys grandma still has from over the years. We definitely need new boundaries for electronics in this family.

I have so many ideas, good ones I think, but I never seem to follow them. I have the greatest of intentions but fail miserably in the follow through department. I have been wanting to read the entire bible in a year for years now, I have a ton of books I want to read that I have had for years now, and I have to get back to hanging out and playing one on one more with my son. He is going to be 8 in 42 days!! All these years are going by and I feel like I am failing him. I wanted to provide him traditions and memories of different holidays and I don't know that I have succeeded at that. I have to resolve that 2013 IS THE YEAR FOR THESE THINGS TO HAPPEN! Even though I am falling "off the wagon" I have to make myself get back up and ride on.  If I fall off and say oh well I failed again, I will never get it right. I know I can go it! I just have to choose to!!

Happy New Years Eve 2012-2013!

Well another year is about to come to an end in a little over an hour and it is so hard to believe. It seems more and more the years go faster and faster. 2012 has been full a lot of changes in our family. I went back to work, Noah went to a traditional brick and morter school, we lost  my father in law, I went back to a SAHM, joined Scentsy as a consultant, and Noah went back to homeschooling. There were other things along the way of course but those were the biggest changes throughout the year I think.

Every year at this time though I have to think about what I have done right, wrong, didnt follow through with, and want to change. There are always many things it seems I say I want to do or need to do and dont do them. SOOO, here is my list of changes coming for me and my family in the next year.

1. We will get to church on a regular basis again.
2. Volunteer to help those less fortunate and in need.
3. We will get back to Friday night family game night.
4. I will read through the Bible in the next year.
5. I will keep Noah on task with school daily.
6. I will make a more conscious effort to eat healthier.
7. We will be starting the Dave Ramsey financial plan, maybe find a class to attend.

I am sure there are many more things that I need to change in the new year but these are the main things that I can think of.

I hope you all have a blessed, healthy, and prosperous 2013!

Christmas thoughts.....

Well it has been way to long again. I find myself thinking currently of the birth of Jesus as Christmas is only a few days away and the year that is almost gone again. Where is the time going? It seems to go by faster and faster.

I am saddened lately by the way my child behaves and the demands he makes. It is Christmas, a time to celebrate our Savior and birth of Gods only son just so he could die for ME! GREATFULNESS for this amazing gift should be at the top of things to talk about. Instead my child is greedy and whiny and demanding. He has become everything I swore he would not be. I wanted to raise a greatful child, one that I could hopefully provide things for but in turn knew to be thankful for all he had.

As things stand I am not happy with the way this year is ending. My child is a brat and I am the reason why! That is a lot to swallow. I have hope though however that it can change. I know I am the problem and that I need to change the things he can and can not do and the consequences for not following that. I can choose to change this path. It is all up to me and I am ready to.

I will be working on a list of things we will be accomplishing this year in the next week. One thing is volunteering as a family. My kids and I need to immerse ourselves in the places where people truly have nothing. We all, including myself are taking so much gro granted it is rediculous. I was mad for a couple months ago because my cell phone did not have all the internet bells and whistles I was used to...... HOW CHILDISH OF ME. Not all people even have a cell phone let alone one that can get on the internet. I am rich by a lot of peoples standards. I do not go shopping all the time and I dont have a new car, but I do have the means to go to the store and buy clothes when needed (most of the time) and I do have a car to go where I please when I please. I have a home to live in with heat and running water.

So I know I am a little bit early but this year my family and I will be working on GREATFULNESS!! I can no longer take the entilted attitudesm including my own.

I hope you all have a blessed Christmas and A Happy New Year!!

Happy Saturday! It surely has been a crazy week for us. With the 3 day holiday weekend to start it, everything just seemed off all week. We got Noahs school done on Tuesday. Wednesday our friends were sick and I had a list of things I needed to do so I figured we could all take a day and get some other stuff done. I should have known better because it always puts us behind when I do that! So on Thursday we had court with dealing with my father-in-laws estate stuff and were down there from about 10am until around 1pm. Noah was at his school room but being a pain for the neighbor so he did not accomplish much. So onto Friday which we got some stuff done but not all of it. We had to leave around 3ish so we could get the kids something to eat before having to be at the school for their football game. We helped get them and the rest of the students ready only to have the game rescheduled for tonight after an hour delay! So today I have been trying to get some things done but I have so many things on my brain I am jumping all around and not finishing any of them!! I am trying my best but its just been real slow. I was able to get some laundry done and start on a meal plan. Now it is time to get everyone dressed and head back to the stadium with camera in tow and have a good time! Although sometimes it makes for a busy crazy schedule I am greatful that the kids are involved in something they enjoy! Have a great night everyone!!